Wanna know a sign of moving forward with great aplomb? Seeing the future with less emphasis of the past.
During my continued quest for enlightenment, a new discovery appeared today, a day of reflection as it is Christmas. I have come far in one short year. Further to go, the pace of which I travel, its movement more brisk this past month, the yearning to grow that more powerful. Feelings of self-doubt fade, replaced with empowerment, a sense of calmness, the slow entry of new normalcy.
The past can eat one alive. If not careful, too much time reflecting on the past, one might just miss something so brilliant and wonderful even when staring smack-dab in front of their face. Reflection is the easy shit, though also important in one’s progress of self-discovery. Letting go of the past? That’s the tough shit. Rejection curtails the temptation of crawling back to safe familiarity. Let’s face it – no matter how painful the past may be, to let go completely, the uncertainty of those consequences, too much to bear, thus, holding on leads to a false sense of security. We cling to the past, good or bad, because we know it. We’ve been there…there’s no possibility for change. The past has already happened.
Once averse to change of the most elementary level, I am allowing myself to recognize past negative behaviors, reflect, finally rejecting it altogether. Again, the tough shit. I’m getting tougher, less emphasis on what’s already happened. It’s DONE. Getting rid of it. Rejecting the negative past. Embracing the positive future.
Rejoice in the freedom of rejection for that’s how I know I am moving forward. Rejoice in knowing I have come far, have further to go, more to give, more to receive, more to reject, more to rejoice. Instead, I take hold, the constant motion of life, the flux of change, the possibility of tomorrow.
Life as I know it. Today. 